Homicide, Not Suicide

As part of its observance of Labor Day, the New York Times (Sept. 6, 2010) included an Op-Ed piece by John Grishom. In his essay, the lawyer-turned novelist recounted his many and varied jobs, at last coming to rest on his work as a writer. His first book, A Time To Kill, took three years to complete and didn’t sell—even though he was so committed to it that he sold it out of the trunk of his car.  He kept his day job, but he also kept writing: “I had never worked so hard in my life nor imagined that writing could be such an effort.” He concluded his essay: “Writing’s still the most difficult job I’ve ever had—but it’s worth it.”

The journey to publication can be long. Take, for example, writers who had to combat a system that is both maddening and heartbreaking before achieving success:

Dune —by Frank Herbert was rejected 23 times before finding a small publisher. It was then made in to a movie, starring Sting, and was followed by 5 sequels.

A Wrinkle in Time—by Madeleine L’Engle was rejected 26 times before being accepted by Farrar, Strauss and Giroux.

Gone With The Wind—by Margaret Mitchell was rejected by 38 publishers.

Dubliners—by James Joyce received 22 rejections.

Chicken Soup for the Soul—by Jack Canfield and Mark V. Hansen was turned down 140 times before finding a publisher. They’ve since sold more than 80 million copies.

The errors of judgment aren’t limited to publishing: HBO turned down Mad Men before it went on to critical and popular acclaim on AMC. In the world of product placement: Mars/M&M turned down the opportunity to be the candy that attracted the little alien in the 1982 blockbuster E.T. By the way, when Hershey’s stepped in with Reese’s Pieces, sales of their candies skyrocketed.

Under the umbrella of “it’s just business” people in power apparently give themselves license to commit any number of crimes against the world and one another.

I once attended a workshop that featured a panel discussion by some poetry editors. One editor actually had the audacity to say that—even though it might take his publication months to get back to a writer—he made it a policy to turn down a submission if a writer dared to contact him to ask for the status on a piece! Oh, and by the way, they wouldn’t accept simultaneous submissions either. Imagine the small, mean spirit of that man. His bitterness. His pathetic grasping for control. At the time, I was so shaken by his comments that I went mute. Today, I wish I could remember his name (or even his publication) because I’d now be able to tell him that it’s not o.k. to take your greed, or unhappy childhood, or bad marriage, or poor self-esteem out on someone else.

It’s gut-wrenching to fight back, but the alternative for the artist is even worse. If we don’t fight, we run the danger of actually believing the people who have set themselves up as gatekeepers. If we internalize the destructiveness of those messages then we turn on ourselves. Case in point: John Kennedy Toole.  He lost hope of ever being published after Simon and Schuster turned down his manuscript. He committed suicide. His book, A Confederacy of Dunces, was published posthumously. It won the Pulitzer—and it’s considered a comic masterpiece.

I don’t pretend to understand how a writer can hear ‘no’ 140 times and keep going. Could 140 publishers be wrong? If they all say ‘no’ then shouldn’t that tell the writer something? But, oh that sweet victory, when a writer succeeds and the gatekeepers have to admit they were wrong. More than that, they have to admit that they lost a chance to make money/win notoriety for themselves, which, in the end, is all that drives them.

The writer’s work doesn’t end when the manuscript is accepted for publication. It actually morphs into marketing as she struggles to garner attention with readers and reviewers. The journey can be treacherous and may involve as much luck as anything else: Imagine a book actually gets reviewed by a major publication, but the reviewer chosen for the job doesn’t like it. Imagine a book making its debut the same week that a much-awaited blockbuster comes out. Imagine, too, a major world event that makes any book a far second in the minds of the public. Better to buy a lottery ticket and leave the suffering to someone else.

Because suffering is very much a factor. But I want to take a stand against needless suffering on this Labor Day.

A therapist I know insists that rage turned inward is a fantastically destructive force. “Homicide is better than suicide any day,” she said.

I’m making that my new mantra—in celebration of Labor Day and all the labor it takes to make a work of art.

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Lonely Road

Next Monday is Labor Day, the traditional return to work and school after summer vacation. I like to imagine tanned adults or children in new clothes sharing cheery stories about their adventures, then passing around photos or showing off souvenirs. And my summer, you ask? Before I answer, let me get this straight: It was summer?

This has been my summer of the computer screen and its relentlessly blinking cursor; of days and nights that traded places, or passed without my knowing; of pacing, elation and tears. This has been, in brief, my summer of the novel. Of the bologna sandwich (eaten at my desk).

In service to my deadline at Blank Slate Press, I’ve turned down freelance work (a very scary prospect for a self-employed writer), banished my dog to a baby pool on the deck, allowed the house to grow dusty, and neglected my friends.

In All I Want (from Blue, [Reprise, 1971]), Joni Mitchell sings:

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be…

I’ve always loved those lines. This summer, I lived them. As I’ve focused on my characters and their lives, my own life has receded. This is not a romantic notion. It’s a fact that I sometimes find disconcerting. Give up images of a steaming latte in a coffee shop as I, pen in hand, smile over some clever bit of dialogue I’ve just jotted into my journal. This novel has been HARD WORK. It has demanded focus and tenacity to match any nightmare job I ever faced as a freelancer. It has called me to a level of self-doubt and personal investment that none of those jobs ever could.

My husband, Jim, has (coincidentally?) been traveling a lot on business this summer. His absence left the burden of our house and pets solely in my care. It also left me free to work my OSHA-violating hours (and to concoct all those sandwich suppers). When I fretted via phone, or email or in person, Jim kept reassuring me that the situation was only temporary—that things would soon return to normal. I heard him at a distance—as I have most things this summer.

The last stanza of All I Want begins:

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Looking for the key to set me free…

A woman I know suggests that rather than temporarily checking out of my familiar existence, I have, in fact, been creating my new life. I want to believe her. I hope that she is right. I hope…I hope…I hope. This has been my summer of hope.

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Write What You Know (Right, What You Know)

Today, I am entering the World of Edit. Although I’ve made revisions a thousand times over-each time I opened the document-I’m now on the third pass, serious pass, of the manuscript I will turn over to my publisher. I’m learning that the work is not the writer. There will be a time when the manuscript is done, but the writer is not. Eudora Welty said that she would mail a manuscript to her publisher, and then stand at the mailbox wondering how she might retrieve it without felony conviction. Walt Whitman could not bear a new edition without a makeover. It is never over. But there is a recognition of commitment to the process. And once the book is out, what remains is hope and regret. And joy at the wonder of the opportunity. So back to my edit, and here’s a poem
I wrote long ago.

I am a prisoner
of inadequate language.
A mime behind glass,
palms pressed to whiteness,
voiceless and nameless.
What do I know?

I know survival.
Lessons learned early.
Shake out your shoes,
always check them
for roaches
before putting them on.

I know kiting checks,
pawning jewelry.
Keeping counsel from others.
Feel nothing,
say nothing,
give nothing away.

On my own, I learned
other lessons.

That Modigliani painted heads.
I bought one.
A woman in profile
printed on cardboard
for eighty eight cents.

I learned that Mozart
borrowed from Vivaldi,
heard it, on my own
before I learned
that this was true.

I recall them, these lessons
but have not learned
to tell them,
or write them, or bear them.

Tell me.
How did Picasso
reconcile all those angles?

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To E- or Not to E-

(Forgive me Mr. Shakespeare, especially since I’m not asking the question.)

I want to share links to two articles by Julie Bosman that appeared in the New York Times (August 12, 2010). First, the writer Pete Hamill has announced that he’s bypassing paper for the publication of his next novel and taking his book straight to digital. You can read the article by going to:

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/12/books/12hamill.html?ref=arts

In the Business section of the same paper, Ms. Bosman reports on the increase in E-book sales being reported by all the major book outlets. She states that some worry large bookstores may decline, as did record stores after music went digital. Read the article at:

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/12/business/media/12bookstore.html?ref=business

My contract with Blank Slate Press includes the option of taking my novel to the electronic format. As a writer, I want my book to reach as many readers as possible.  So if my readers want an E-book or an audio book, I’ll certainly oblige. And we haven’t even talked about my plans to reach the people who prefer their stories on film. (Are you reading this Jason Reitman?)

I don’t own an E-reader, nor do I have plans to buy one. Many of my friends use them, and I certainly understand their appeal. In the end it’s a question of personal choice. I choose the tactile experience of the book—the more beautiful the better. And a leather jacket on a plastic E-reader will ever come close.

I’m a reader, not a collector; but I’ve walked away from books that are badly done (read: acidic paper, muddy type, dreadful margins that squeeze the content of each page). I’ve also taken classes in bookbinding from the artist, Joanne Kluba at her Paperbirds Studio (www.paperbirds.com). If you’ve never made a book by hand, I recommend it.  As with most art forms, it can be humbling to take something from imagination to the real world. Even so, after making books under the guidance of a real artist like Ms. Kluba, I’ve come away with an entirely new appreciation for the craft.

Hundreds of years ago, when all books were made by hand, the materials were considered so precious that books were literally scraped clean so that new texts could be written on the same pages. That practice makes me as anxious as the idea of loading up an E-reader with hundreds of titles, only to have the technology change, making my collection no longer accessible. Anyone who thinks this is ridiculous obviously never used early word processors, computer programs, floppy disks or zip disks.

E-books are here and their influence is growing. But, (as Mr. Hamill observed) how will an E-book allow for a book signing?

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Throw Mama From the Bates Motel: Publishing 2010

Jane Henderson, a reporter with the St. Louis Post-Dispatch, published a story on the front page of today’s paper about new options for publishing—thanks in large part to innovative publishers such as Blank Slate Press (who will bring out my forthcoming novel) as well as the tremendous advances afforded by technology. Ms. Henderson interviewed me as part of her story, so I was particularly interested in her article. As I read the piece, however, I couldn’t get over the numbers she cited: More than 1 million books were published in the U.S. last year. Of that number, 764,448 titles came from non-traditional publishers, while 288,355 titles came from traditional presses. In all, industry sources say there are some 70,000 publishers in the U.S. today.

These numbers overwhelm me: How will my voice be heard among so many others?  But the numbers also give me a new appreciation for possibility: Rather than believe there is no room for another voice, I am excited about the opportunity to add my unique perspective.

I am an adjunct professor at Webster University in St. Louis where I teach a course on scriptwriting. The topics of voice, of unique vision, are often discussed. Here’s an exercise that I often do with my students: I’ll suggest a story idea, say “a man has conflicts with his mother” and I’ll ask my students to name works that address this topic. Together, we’ve filled several white boards with works ranging from Oedipus Rex to Hamlet, Psycho to Throw Mama From the Train.

Not everyone is John Grisham. Not everyone wants to be. I’m even willing to bet that Mr. Grisham enjoys reading voices other than his own.

To read the Post-Dispatch article (and see photos) go to the link below:

http://www.stltoday.com/entertainment/books-and-literature/article_a53f72cd-28df-5d1e-8f77-265422a378c3.html

You can also download the article (without photos) from this post: It’s easy to publish a book these days

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